真の人生

Its all about her...Lazy Bum

2010-05-02T18:56:00.000-07:00

Hrmmm...how would i start this post,guys you know what...since the day i got back from KL that night this post was blank,empty and untouch accept the title above.It was 3am or more if im not wrong...i cant sleep,just sit infront of my pc and trying to find the best way to start this post but still cant find any better way to describe my feeling that night and the pass 2days hanging out with "Lazy Bum".

As i thinking thru what to write i try ask my self is this what i think it is or this is just those pinch of feeling i have...its kinda headache to think that way so i ended this post with a blank and get back to my sleep.In the next day i thought it would be another normal day for me...work hard thru out the day,gym and back home online like usual but when all it stoped and sat infront of the pc i start felt weird...i cant find the reason why untill i saw someone isnt online in my msn friends list and i just remembered "Lazy Bum" just got her new job and have to work late =( .We usual chat around those time and do webbie each other as im tries to make her laught and smile each time we chat,im kinda enjoy seeing her smiles everytime we chat...not that im a pervert or what its just seeing her sweet smile blow my cares away,she makes my day.I like the way she force me to go back home msn with her but mostly i done only 3/5 =P .

In this whole week after my KL trip,i havent been my self lately...everytime i go out i doesnt feel right,like my body goin out to have fun but my mind are somewhere else that i cant concerntrate on whatever i do(accept work that is) all i think bout is "Lazy Bum" everyday im worried that did she taken her meal well(as she easily gastric),did she have enough sleep(as she just getting to blend in working hour routine),is she goin to work and back from work safely with or without friends transport(as i know KL and KK is not the same),when she bad mood or stressout from work and im not around to make her smile etc etc....i donno how to hold these feelin(cuz im a noob) and i dont want to be too obvious or over do things(scared will scare her away) ><

Im no profesional writer,im no profesional publisher...im just a down-to-earth kinda guy writing what i felt and trying to tell her how much i...cant say that its love cuz not yet in a relationship but its more then admire and like,just cant seem to find the right words to describe.So what i wrote above its kinda messy but its from my heart.

Shes is the girl that makes me scared to lose,the one who i cant walk away knowing she is mad,the one who makes me worried alot in distance way,the one i cant fall asleep without her being the last voice i hear,Lazy Bum.

I miss my "刘珊珊"

2010-04-21T20:52:00.000-07:00

Just read a articles in a car magazine about an author wrotes about cars lover and how much he loves his wife "Helen"(is a JDM white Honda Civic Eg6).In the articles he wrote bout how cars lover craving for more of everything we can never be 100% satisfied with our own cars(thats just human nature) for example,slobber with delight,lust and envy everytime they get see their friend's car install with some nice "ice" and "bling" or some hardcore performence and rare racing accessories....and must not forget our favourite car magazine.It is demotivating and demoralizing lusting afrer all the goodies and part which currently out of reach and we'll lost the fire for enjoy our car for what she is in current state.Few months ago i just sold my beloved "刘珊珊"(is a JDM white Honda Ek4,as seen in the pic) i called her by that name cuz her plate number is 633,when u read it in chinese it should sound like a human name "刘珊珊".The 1st time i saw her my heart really skip a beat as im so in love with her,the curve of her body shape...the purity of her white colour....her sweet and not so loud exhaust sound oh im so in love.We've spend alot of precious time together thru out the year as we drove here and there,as been thru alot of exciting moment too...i still remember that i 1st giving her a pair of new "heels" and it was superb,i felt her gripness on every turn i make.Driving 120-150/kmh and cutting thru each possible car on road i could,it felt so great!!But still,as i writen above...every car owner still wont feel perfect about his own wife and so as me.The only thing that makes my wife not 100%(or maybe 90%) perfect is it gearbox,its still under AT gear instead or MT gear....i still cant feel the full potential of her power and the part i wanna change is over the budget im gonna give(beside it is fucking unworth cuz those part keep increasing each month) so im kinda lose the fire inside me.Suddenly the word "give her away and get a new 1" came out of mind in thin air...i was unhappy bout giving her away at start but then my last decision still the same-old-give-away routine.Before i sold her out i jumped in and give a spiritful ride on her for the last time and spend our one-on-one quality time togather.As the ride goes on...i felt sorry for letting her go and for the 1st time i cried for a car,i mean she not just a car...she is my soul,my wife and my partner in life when i lost my way in life and she was the 1 who give me a relaxing windy ride.Oh how i misses her now,hope the new owner treat her well and do better then me.

P.S : To all cars lover,when u felt down...out of sense of hopeless for your car,don't!Just grab the keys....start the engine and give it a long and spiritfull ride on her.You'll find the fire back and you'll never see the same light on your car again.

Wedding Dress

2010-04-20T19:03:00.000-07:00

Some say its not over till its over,guess this is really over now and theres something i gotta say before i let you go.

When you have a fight with him,sometimes when you cry and feel sad and blue i become hopeful.My heart aches secretly inside whenever its happen,just a hint of your smile can make me feel fine again.I hold my breath,and bite my lips just to keep you from figuring out how i feel about you cuz im scared that we would drift apart from it.

In the church on your wedding day,when the music starts you vow to spend the rest of my live with him.How i prayed every night that this day would never come but it still came to me in the end.You look so pretty in the wedding dress that you love the most,sadly im not the one who was next to you sharing our vows,you'll never knew how i felt about you and hated you so...sometimes i wished you would be unhappy while seeing getting marry with him.

Now i have no more tears left to cry,when im by myself talk to you like you're here with me.Realising that you're gonna be his lady soon,i've felt so restless every night when think of it...maybe i've known all along this would be happening soon and every night i close my eyes and dream an endless dream just to be with you.

"Baby,dont take his hand when he comes to you coz you should be my lady..i've been waiting for you so long and you know it,look at me now" as i touchin you face and telling you how i felt....thats is what i wanna do on the wedding day but its all become unchangable reality now.Please be happy with him so that i can forget you and please forget how miserable i looked as its going to be unbearably hard for me to get thru it for a long while to come....

My Lacoste Shoe!!

2010-04-18T06:09:00.000-07:00

HurayyyY~this is my new Cicak Hijau(Lacoste) shoes lol!! suddenly im so into Lacoste....this pair of shoes cost me Rm395 and this in the middle range price...there is as low Rm199(nt so nice design) and Rm500(simple and nice but i hv no idea would be tht expansive) but mostly i dont care cz i like the design...i dont mind the price as long its worth to buy^^....but i gt a fren jz bought a Rm2300+ Gucci shoes,imagine...whn u say "y would u buy such expensive shoes to wear and step under ur feet?" when there is ppl buying Rm2300+ Gucci shoes step under their feet!!!goshh.....

Its Been While.....Lost Track

2010-04-13T20:45:00.000-07:00

Hello to my blog and hello to my reader(if there's any of them xD) its been long i've last update my blog,in between this post and my last post...many things happens and many stuff i gain and lost its jz too much to bring it up but jz simply list it up or post some pic to review so...enjoy^^

BlueBerry Ice-Cream Cheesecake...looks nice huh?belive or not...i bake it^^

Mesilau trip : Shuffle at bridge....dare u do it! !

Mesilau Trip : gang gang kita....lolx

Mesilau Trip : 火车虫,马陆(Milipede)...this baby lenght is about 1feat!

Mesilau Trip : nice waterfall huh...

Mesilau Trip : dono wots the name of the flower but it looks pretty...hehee

These are some pic from my KL trip...there r alot of them but kinda lazy to upload them all and its over 100+ of them...jz post some of good memories of my trip....hahaha....saw the food and the fridge fill wif thai virgin coconuts?its from a restaurant from StarHill called Jogoya...jz pay Rm88+ and eat all u can buffet fill with...errmmm....alot of foods and i mean ALOT!japanese,chinese,steamboat,ice cream...u name it and the food,2 thumbs up man!!eat till u vomit!!hahahah.....in our trip we've been to Redbox sing k till like 3am,theres alot of crazy pic i dint get it but my fren posted them on his facebook acc.Beside Redbox,we been to Genting for gamble and Sunway to play the "Jumping Machine" hahaha...It was a fun and stupid trip for us,quiet memorable as i seldom go trip wif a bunch of frens.Yep,this is my simple simple post for wot happen lately...i mean in 2k9 hahahhaha...2k10 post will coming soon....im soo soooo lazy ><

Struggle for Hope

2009-09-04T21:56:00.000-07:00

I thouhgt faith was knocking on my door who knws whn i was gonna answer it and faith has gone away...when things came to you fast ,it goes even faster.Sometimes i wonder,could it be my problem tht i dint hold on to it and let it go away easily?Althought its a short moment of happiness,i truely treasure it in my heart cz to me...u bring hope to me whn i 1st meet u,i thought it was a new begining of a new chapter between us but then u left me alone without a reason even an explaination.Did you knw how suffered and how confusing my mind is this whole week?keep thinking the reason why?keep thinking izit anything happen?keep thinking izit i've done something wrong to u tht make u made at me or worst,till u have to treat me like this?Yes its easy for u to walk away without saying anything but how bout me?do you think of me,my feelings?.......i really donno how to continue write this anymore
Confront to me plz,dont let me wonder anymore....let compromise our needs 2gather and settle it once and for all

P.S
im still waiting...

Something's Gotta Give

2009-08-28T04:05:00.000-07:00

Here is a great movie that i got from a friend of mine...its about a funny but yet touching(and kinda sexy too ^^). Harry Sanborn (Jack Nicholson) is a wealthy New York businessman who has had a habit of dating women under 30 for 40 years,a successful playwright Erica Barry (Diane Keaton) and the handsome young doctor, Julian Mercer (Keanu Reeves)
Soon, the two have fallen in love, they live very different lifestyles Erica's determination to be single and independent, and Harry's constant desire for new women and experiences combined with the fact that Harry is dating Marin and Julian has fallen for Erica, leave the two struggling to deal with their current relationships with others, but also work on their own....after that go watch this movie!hahahaha....
I was touch by the story and the meaning of the story...cuz u never know when ur gonna found your soulmate or a person you really in love with,but when your found that special some 1 it wont be that easy to optain/conquest in the relationship your looking for.Sure at 1st it would be destiny that brings each other togather but then its the hardwork and your own heart that leads you to a sweet and beautifull love of each other share...most important things is that it take 2 people to undestand each others to complete a relationship....like a a tango dance,it take 2 dancer to complete it and it wont be that beautifull if just 1 people dancing and the others not

P.S : I'll do anything and give anything to make it sweet and coulorfull in relationship^^

Marley & Me....such a great movie

2009-08-11T02:39:00.000-07:00

Marley, a yellow Labrador Retriever, is described as a highly strung, boisterous, and somewhat uncontrolled dog. He is strong, powerful, endlessly hungry, eager to be active, and often destructive of their property (but completely without malice)
You'll knw what i mean after watching this movie,its bring laughter in the beginning cz of it annoying and uncontrolled act...but sadly it end with a sad ending,its even bring tears in me :'( the reason i burst with tears cz i have a dog too name Ralphy and i love him so much ( but i seldom accompany or play with him cz of my tiring work =/ ) i do scare that 1 day he will pass away....

Caramel Pudding...

2009-07-25T06:39:00.000-07:00

Since i were small i use to eat sweet stuff and Caramel Pudding its the 1st thing i hv a crush on it...oh the sweetness,the cute fragile looking thing and the most important is the taste of caramel...oh so addicted to it,here is the list below to make a Caramel Pudding(i follow this in a cooking book...so u can adjust the sweet as u like^^)

Yield
Makes 2 cups; 4 servings

Ingredients
2 cups whole milk
2 tablespoons cornstarch
1 large egg
2/3 cup sugar
2 teaspoons vanilla

Preparation
1. In a bowl, whisk 1/2 cup milk, cornstarch, and egg until well blended.
2. In a 2- to 3-quart pan over medium-high heat, tilt and swirl sugar until melted and deep amber, about 4 minutes. Stir in remaining 1 1/2 cups milk; mixture will bubble and sugar will harden. Stir until sugar melts again, about 2 minutes.
3. Whisk about 1/2 cup of the caramelized sugar mixture into cornstarch mixture, then return all to pan. Stir over medium-high heat until pudding thickens and begins to bubble, 3 to 5 minutes. Remove from heat and stir in vanilla. Pour into bowls and serve warm. Or let cool, chill airtight up to 2 days, and serve cold.

Ferrero Rocher Dark Chocolate...yummM~~

2009-07-25T05:14:00.000-07:00

Oh my god!!i never ate such thing in my life....ever eat any of this baby?better try it and u cant find it here in malaysia yet...my friend bought for me from Singapure cz he knws i likes to eat Dark Chocolate,so he bought a few type choc and 1 of them is this Ferrero Rocher...oh sweet~~~~

Hot Hot day~!!!

2009-04-28T04:54:00.000-07:00

walaowee~~wot a hot day man...open fan till the max also feeling hot,even the wind blows feels hot and the most making me crazy is the electricity stop for 3hours start 11am - 1pm...damn those SESB!!

Just get my salary....for April?no ur wrong...for March!!cz i usually get my salary in the middle of the month but i dint knw it could delay this late man....but its a good news cz i dint get to use it due to late getting my salary as my previus weeks r kinda money saving weeks for me =P

Ever see these words?hahah...guess u dont cz its from my new Basketball shoes case i jz bought..."Adidas TS Lightswitch Gil II Zero x Vote For Gilbert(Gilbert Arenas)" thts my shoe name =P

Try guess hw much it cost?Rm400+?rm600+?....nope its jz cost me Rm180+ LOL! cz Adidas gt this promotion discount for those shoes size 10 above gt 50% discount...nice huh....and u can see,i wear size 11(beat that!)

Gintama...my fav anime

2009-04-20T09:33:00.001-07:00

Gintama...a anime tht i've love bout cz its story is weird emotions,hillarious and creative....its much diff from Bleach,D-grey man and Naruto and thts the point i love it so much...heres some info bout this anime below...

Story : The story takes place in Edo (known today as Tokyo because of the name change in 1868), Japan, which has been taken over by aliens called Amanto since the late Edo period. The samurai of Japan have fallen, and the Amanto placed a ban on carrying swords in public. The story focuses on an eccentric samurai, Gintoki Sakata, his (partial) apprentice Shinpachi Shimura, and a teenage alien girl: Kagura. All three are "free-lancers" who search for work in order to pay the monthly rent, which usually goes unpaid anyway.

Characters :

Gintoki Sakata (坂田銀時 ,Sakata Gintoki): Voiced by: Tomokazu Sugita; Gintoki Sakata is the main character of the story. He has naturally permed hair, which he blames for his lacking love-life. He rides a motor scooter and wields a bokuto, which has "Lake Toya" (洞爺湖 ,Tōya-ko) inscribed onto it. His job, as is written on his business card, is a "free-lancer", meaning he'll take any job for nearly any price. He enjoys reading Shōnen Jump comics and he has a sweet tooth and will go into crazed combat if he does not have his sweets (he has glycosuria).

In the past, he was a Joi (someone who attempted to overthrow Amanto to protect the government), known as Shiroyasha, or White Demon . The reason Gintoki does not join Kotaro Katsura again to fight the aliens is that he does not like to fight alongside "gloomy terrorists".
Shinpachi Shimura (志村新八 ,Shimura Shinpachi): Voiced by: Daisuke Sakaguchi; Shinpachi works under Gintoki to learn the ways of the samurai. However, it seems more like he is just trying to help Gintoki pay the rent than to learn. Shinpachi is the captain of the "Otsu Imperial Guard," a pop-singer's fan club.; Shinpachi first met Gintoki after he was tripped by an alien ambassador. Gintoki beats up the ambassador and his guards to get revenge for his spilled parfait. Soon after, Gintoki framed Shinpachi for the crime, which somehow led to him saving Shimura Tae (Otae), Shinpachi's sister, from being added to a brothel.
Kagura (神楽 ): Voiced by: Rie Kugimiya; Kagura is an alien from the "Yato Clan," one of the strongest races in existence. Despite her alien heritage, she looks like a normal human and talks with a Chinese accent (suspicious/exaggerated Chinese accent, except for when she spouts off insults - then she uses Kansai dialect). She can stop Gintoki's motor scooter single-handedly and has an umbrella that is bullet-proof and can fire bullets from the tip. Her stomach knows no bounds and she apparently loves to eat sukonbu.; She originally came to Earth to earn money to help her parents' financial situation. Because of her immense strength, she took to fighting for a gang. After she was told to kill a few people, she tried to escape from the gang and was almost run over by Gintoki's motor scooter. He liberated her, and she forced him to let her join his free-lancer business. She sleeps in the closet of Gintoki's home. Kagura has a giant dog-like creature called Sadaharu as a pet, which she had found. Sadaharu has a habit of often biting most characters, with the exception of Kagura.

(定春 Sadaharu), Seiyū - Mikako Takahashi

Sadaharu has the outward appearance of a giant dog, but is actually an inugami. He was originally owned by a pair of miko sisters (Ane and Mone). His inugami powers are awakened if he consumes both strawberries and milk at the same time.^{[citation needed]} He was named by Kagura, after her first pet, a rabbit which she accidentally strangled to death while having a nightmare. When sitting on his haunches, he is taller than most humans. He was left in front of Gintoki's apartment in a box that had "To Mr. Freelancer" written on it. Sadaharu chomps on anything smaller than itself, such as Gintoki's and other people's heads. Kagura seems to be the only one who can control him, for she has immense strength, though he chomps on her occasionally. Though he was dangerous when Gintoki first received him, he has become quite tame in the later episodes. He even obeys Gintoki at certain points, and has helped the main characters in many occasions. Kagura and Gintoki often seen riding on his back, as he is big enough to carry two full-grown adults. After a certain period of time, even Gintoki (who originally did not want Sadaharu around) refused to abandon Sadaharu or give him back to the Miko sisters.

Recently, Sadaharu has impressed a yakuza's boss and receives permission to date his dog (whom Sadaharu himself has fallen in love for).

Sadaharu's birthday is February 25. His height is 170 centimetres (67 in), and he weighs 300 kilograms (660 lb).

In this anime Sadaharu is the character i love the most....he is big,fluffy,cute and fierce(when he eat strawberry and milk to awaken his Inugami) wot can i say more bout this character?go watch and u know y i like bout it^^ beside Sadaharu...Gintoki Sakata,the main character cz he is a....special,cant really say much bout him accept he is lazy LOL try watch Gintama and u'll know^^

Patapon!!Pata Pata Pata Pon~!!

2009-04-19T01:26:00.000-07:00

Recently im so damn addicted to this psp game called "Patapon"....is a button pressing and beat timing game that any1 will kinda addicted too,as specially its cute charater and music beat.....from the pic above u can see its like some 300 mini game but without the blood slaughtering action
So for those who have psp do hv a try on this game and im sure tht u'll love it and u'll play it for the whole day!(as for me =p)

Thousand Cranes

2009-04-14T03:05:00.000-07:00

In your letter, I could read nothing,
so I want to meet you to hear the words
from your lips.
Even with the white color of the clear sky, a sigh echoes.

If I can just hear it from your lips, and understand why,
the colors
of the sky cause this breath, will I be rescued from this?
We wish to be
strong, for everything that cannot be made good,
Oh how we would like to
forget.

"The you of tomorrow is changing(lying)" when you sing with such
passion,
it lulls me to sleep.
Oh but restraint like thorns twine about
me in sleep.
And even puts the mind to sleep.
In my sleep I feel your hot
and fevered cheek against me.
And when looking into the blurred gap of
reality,
it reveals a dream of shadows, faintly intercepting me,
as it
sings in the oak trees.

My eyes reflect the image of you,
And even if
the day when these eyes lose sight of you comes,
I’m positive you’re burned
into these eyes,
even if I leave you.

The white sky that blots out my
tears shakes,
I seem to have forgotten how to speak,
Where do the tears
flow, and where have they gone?
You’re calling my name.
You hold me so
tightly and it feels as if I might break.
But I’m afraid of losing
you.

Where does the sound of your song come from?
My ears can’t hear
it anymore, but for the echoes shaking within me.
The cold color of the sky
is haunting me, I hold onto the memory of
the warmth, the faint unstable
pulse from you, I felt on my cheek for that
one instance, it almost can’t be
recalled.

Thousands of tiny wings draw close to me,
as I, unrecalled
of the expectation of your return,
emmersed in the cold color of the sky -
got one
last time to hear your voice, at your request. In that moment
the
sound of your sigh, in the cold white sky.
"Those two will never be united as
one being again."